I am not much for New Years, I always felt so much pressure to do something cool, to go out and party or drink, to be at the most popular place, to tell the best stories. I guess it’s because I’m still only 20 years old, but I’ve always felt a little out of place in my age group, interest wise.
That being said, this New Years Eve feels different. I feel as though 2015 deserves a special farewell, because it has given me so much. 2015 has also taken so much, but life will do what it will do, won’t it? I feel so blessed to have had another year on this beautiful Earth, and so to commemorate it I thought maybe this year deserved a few words. So here is my letter to 2015.
I am so grateful. This year has brought me so many blessings, so much joy. It has also brought many struggles, which have graced me with the most humble teachings. I have never felt so complete, yet I have never felt more room for growth.
I made life altering decisions this year, like deciding to stop going to University full time, and to focus more on what soothes my heart.
I planned the wedding of my dreams and married the man who brings me more grace and wholeness than I ever thought I could feel.
I lost the most dear woman, my soulmate, perhaps. Grandma, we miss you every day.
I learned yoga. I learned it’s true meaning. I learned it’s powers of healing.
I learned that nature is my best medicine.
I learned that even though many people expect me to behave as a regular 20 year old girl, I don’t have to live the reflection of other people’s expectations. I am allowed to want what I want, despite my age.
I allowed myself to begin this little corner of the internet, even though I didn’t tell anyone for months out of embarrassment.
I learned to embrace this blog, and not be embarrassed.
I told everyone about this blog, with pride.
I think, most of all, 2015 has taught me authenticity. That makes me so damn proud to say, because after all, if you aren’t you in all that you do, then what are you?
So, 2o15, you have blessed me. There are no words to express my gratitude for this year and all that has come through it. It is a blessing to be here today, it is a blessing to have all that I have, and it is a blessing to look forward to another year without fear.
I know that many people have had a really hard year, and that maybe their hope for 2016 is clouded. I am praying for all those who are struggling through this change in year, and hope that you find what makes you smile, even just for a moment.
I hope you all have the loveliest close to 2015, doing whatever makes your heart happy. You deserve it!
Take good care, lovelies.